Pleasure Principle

One of the reasons why I personally like Janet is because she presents herself just like the rest of us at times. She can't say no to an extra taco and thinks nothing of putting on sweats, sneakers and a ball cap and making a run to the store. Now mind you it's in a $300K car, but you know, lol

I also like her because she, like myself - cleans up hella well. I never profess to be a beauty, I've always worked the cute angle (like her) - and most times I'm a hot mess in the fashion/hair/accessories/shoe category, but as I've embraced my grown woman - I will clean up exceptionally well. So does she!

The tabloids have a ball with her because of this - we have come to expect when we see Janet rocking a size 16/18 - that she's either not on tour or she's going through something. She has MASTERED the quick meltdown and now we just wait until she finally can't do it anymore.

As a Jackson we KNOW she's had some nips and tucks but there are a couple of things I am just not buying - JANET JACKSON HAS THE HANDS DOWN BEST BREASTS AND ASS IN THE BUSINESS!!! I've seen her naked sunbathing pictures and there are no tell tell breast enhancement cuts, not even under her arms. I long for the day when she reveals what kinda bra she wears. I've come to the conclusion she goes to Walmart and gets those shelves you put up in the corner, places them in her bra and just goes for hers!! That broad can work cleavage like NO OTHER!!

Every since she was a child she was called "Donk" which is short for Donkey concerning her caboose. During her Penny days she was a child, nobody was looking (I hope not), during Different Strokes and Fame - she had the beginnings of a booty worth looking at but with that cute face - it went unnoticed. In control - she was in transition and covered in Black from head to toe - the ass was not allowed to breathe and then THIS VIDEO CAME OUT:

GOOD GOOGDY MOOGDIE

Where in the hell did she get all that?! Was heard around the world. From this point on, the birth of Janet's Ass was complete. It had done alot of things over the last decade, but it became the signature ass to have. You couldn't help, man or woman, black or white in exclaiming DAMN when that bad boy was given the spotlight.

The black woman and her behind have always been the subject of conversation, mystification and ridicule. I never even really noticed women's behinds since I grew up as a black girl in a black community - it was nothing new and since I didn't have one, lol lol I like to classify mine as a cocktail table when I wanted an end table. None of us have any ass or hips for that matter SIGH. I really didn't pay attention until the era of the video and the unrobing of black women on TV. Then it's like OHHHHHH.

It still isn't anything extraordinary, but a few stick out. Beyonce actually in my opinion doesn't have ass she has SHAPE and Lord she has hips and her hips to waist ratio is such that she is so freaking curvy. Trina who sings about hers all the time if we're honest (from a female perspective cause black men could give a damn) has no thigh/knee proportion and her thighs are so thick they blend with the ass (no creases) so sometimes to me she looks like a Barbie doll Shape. So basically that leaves Janet - who has creases (or creates them) so that her ass sits in a league of it's own - smiling, winking, playing games with yah, ROTFL.

Seeing her on American Idol and how she squoze in that vintage dress that had a shelf for her ass and then she went buck, threw on a catsuit and showcased it like MIDDLE AMERICA I'M BACK ON TVVVVVVVV!!! was Fantabulous.

Women everywhere rushed to Pilates this morning or their local beauty supply store to try to work on their ass.

As a special side note - I'm not necessarily I'm over what JD did to her career (let's not work and love together) - but he has played a very important role in her life that she acknowledges - he taught her how to love her body. When you dripping fine like that (in the eyes of others) and you don't believe it yourself and feel uncomfortable that folks look at you that way - there's got to be hell. I can only assume because I don't get that kinda heat, lol lol But him embracing her at size 16 or 6 and loving on that ass - has given her the whereforall to let the rest of us relish in it's beauty.

It can be real base and crass but one of the reasons the Blackwoman is the most beautiful is because of that right there - that glorious......ASS!!

Work It Ms. Jackson!

He Is Me and I Am Him

I remember when my first husband passed (RM/RIP), it was just a horrible horrible time. His only Brother was really going through it. One day I saw him and he had basically morphed into his older Brother. It was the most interesting thing, but not something I hadn't seen before. When my Daddy passed (SA/RIP) my (sigh) Brother outfitted himself in his clothing down to his hat and 'became' him for a time. Grief is a powerful powerful emotion and has to be expressed in a very personal way - to decide how someone grieves is really putting yourself in a postion to have to much time on your hands.

Last evening - I sat watching the American Idol finale and really enjoying myself. I had been tipped off by Jackson Source that Janet was going to perform and that immediately put me in the frame of mind that event would happen about 9:52pm est. No matter WHO was on this show, she was headlining.

Then the American Idol kids began singing "Again" and I turned the TV up and got ready to see mah girl. She's always been my girl because (1) she was closest to Mike of the sisters (2) I some kinda way could relate to her especially when Control came out (3) She was my diet HERO! and (4) The Bish is just bad!!

Well she sauntered out and I went insane. Now I'm not sure exactly why but I really think that it has something to do with the proximity of 'you know what' and the fact that I am slowly slipping back down a slippery slope about that (that's another post). Nevertheless, I was real crunk to see Janet and then I saw something else...

She was giving us her best Michael. Yep, her morphing was almost complete. She took her hair in a short direction so that you could see the Jackson without any obstruction and she lost the weight and finally her voice came up one octave and had this softness that was so Mike. She has another song out, a faster song where she uses the lyrics "Don't Stop Till You Get Enough" and now this voice for "Nothing" from the "Why Did I Get Married 2?" Soundtrack.

I throughly enjoyed her performance - she brought the fire and the brimstone, flipped off all the young girls, served em and left, lol lol

I was NOT offended by her channeling her Brother and I expect more of that from her, I think it's going to beautiful. She is probably the best qualified to visually give him to us - let's be honest here, love Jermaine like a step brother, but um...no, lol

So I was happy to see that she is reconciling whatever her and her brothers demons were and that she's in a place where he has ultimately helped her - she's focused, she's glowing, she's having a rebirth, she's getting her grown woman on and she about to STUNT ON THESE HOES!!!!!!

Ease On Down The Road

As an avid reader, I had already devoured the entire Wizard of Oz Series (you know there was more than one story right?) by the time the Wiz had come out. I was in the 6th or 7th grade and the school decided to take us on a field trip to go see it at the movies. I remember because we were going to Greenbriar (Atlanta Natives will know all about this). Our school was not anywhere near Greenbriar, but it was the theatre that Black people went to and seeing as my Elementary School was all black –we were gonna board the bus and head that way.

I was excited to see Michael Jackson! Oh Lawd he was gonna be on the big screen like 50 feet tall and playing the Scarecrow which was PERFECT for him.

My memories of this are in two parts. This first one is just funny. We weren’t allowed to bring things on these field trips, but how in the world were we gonna go that far without candy. I had been commissioned to be one of the people who snuck candy on the bus etc. I couldn’t think of anyplace to hide the candy so I decided to take the Nahl latars (that’s how you pronounce that, lol) also know as Now or Laters out the pack and stack them neatly along the sides of my bra. Yes that’s what I did – that flat part of the bra leading to the back was the perfect location who was looking there? Well I remember standing in line to file out to the bus when all of a sudden I felt movement – those SQUARE candy’s had started moving to the FRONT!! I had these square lumps on my chest and seeing as my chest wasn’t you know quite there it was crazy!! Yes I got all the candy taken, but you talking about FUNNY!

The next part is directly related to how Mike just is there. I really can’t tell you about my reaction the first time I saw the movie way back then because I don’t remember, lol HOWEVER – I can definitely tell you that I left there with a new theme song that would carry me through High School. YOU CAN’T WIN. Mikes featured performance with the Crows in the junk yard. That song was so ripe for teenage angst, lol I used to play that bad boy over and over and over – especially in the 13-15 years. My mom at one point, threatened to take the 45 from me cause she started to get the message – it was a passive/aggressive punk ass teenager move but it made me feel better, lol lol I had no voice and Mike always provided one for me.

I’ve watched the Wiz a couple of times and made sure my daughter saw it. Lena Horne was ALWAYS the most beautifulest Girl In The World and Nipsey Russell made me smile. Mike was just Mike in costume and Diana was the oldest teenager ever, lol lol




YOU CAN’T WIN

(Sung by Michael Jackson)

You can't win
You can't break even
And you can't get out of the game
People keep sayin'
Things are gonna change
But they look just like they're staying the same
You get in
Way over your head
And you've only got yourself to blame

You can't win, chile
You can't break even
And you can't get out of the game

You can't win
The world keeps movin'
And you're standin' far behind
People keep sayin'
Things 'll get better
Just to ease your state of mind
So you lay back
And you smoke that smoke
And you drink your glass of wine

You can't win, chile
You can't break even
And you can't get out of the game

You can't win
You can't win
No way if your story stays the same
You ain't winnin'
But it's nice to see you
I'm awfully glad you came
Better cool it
'Cause it ain't about losin'
Then the world has got no shame

You can't win, chile
You can't break even
And you can't get out of the game

You can't win
You can't win
You can't break even
Ain't the way
It's supposed to be
You'll be spendin'
Your little bit of money
While someone else ride free
Learn your lesson, refuel your mind
Before some turkey blows out your flame

We Are The World

A co-worker came to my desk and we were talking and I saw them looking around my desk and as if there were a secret code she said, “ I couldn’t sleep last night and so I watched three hours of Michael Jackson – I miss him” We looked at each other and though there may have been varying degrees of pain, we connected at that moment – the flittering of magic mike dust fell around us and we were transported to the world of MIKEATAR.

What transpired was an emotional fast paced roller coaster ride. Talking fast and all at once, we spilled out our abbreviated stories – inhaling and exhaling as if we had found a fellow tribe member. She’s around my age so I know we come from the same part of the Island – she will know of 1979, she will know of Mike as he matured, she shares my sentiment that he was ‘our’ first boyfriend.

Her love was genuine which made me that much more excited. The look in our eyes as we dreamed about whether this was all just a very bad joke was mutual. You ever notice Mike fans get this ‘look’ when we speak of him, lol

We immediately made a vow like two 13 year olds to talk about Mike and I already know that we will.

It is always amazing to run into a fan – always amazing the connection we have.

I just wanted to share 

Like Waves In The Ocean...

May 25th will be 11 months. Somewhere in my mental calendar, time is slowing down remembering and grasping at everything that happen this time last year. More and more my heart is beginning to fill with trepidation because it knows...it knows.

I am not spiraling into the fog just yet - but I see it off in the distance. I want to work on my scrapbook so that it will be done in time, I have begun trolling the net for things to 'buy'. The feeling I get when something new comes in with his image, his likeness etc. is almost like a 'high'.

No I don't really know how I will 'be' a month from May 25th. I don't want to plan, I just want to experience. I feel good knowing that I will be encircled and embraced by the entire world as we struggle in our grief.

May 25th will be 11 months......

I Want Destiny!

The Destiny Album was a turning point in my Jackson Journey. I remember going up to the West End Mall in Atlanta GA and purchasing the album. It was 1978 and I was 12 years old and about to enter Highschool (back then you went to HS in the 8th grade). Back then an album was what? $4.99 or so, lol Let me tell you I had to save and save and save to get that money up!

My memory is spotty in parts but as I write this I can almost feel the same level of excitement when I got that record home and cracked that plastic --- FAINT!



This was not MOTOWN BABY! This in my opinion was the perfect introduction to High School - a whole bunch of Seniors in my minds eye, lol lol Destiny was also an important album in my life because I was full of budding teenage angst, feelings and a stirring of sexual identity and Mike and his brothers spoke to me about all of that. My two favorite songs from this Album are "That's what you get for being polite" and "Destiny". This whole album was one you could listen to from the first song to the last but these were standout tracks for me at the time.

Another defining memory in the landscape of my life with Mike was the fact that this album provided me with practice in a very important area...kissing, lol The way the Album was arranged Randy was one one end and Michael was at the other end. My friend Patricia and I would sit on the couch and listen to this album and kiss our 'boyfriends' LOL LOL I still have that original album and it's cover and Randy and Mike are definitely kissed all up, lol lol

Such wonderful memories - such wonderful memories.