What Kinda Fan are You?

Hmm, I have been thinking about my own question and I guess my fan-atic leans towards the purity of youth. I want to remain in the space of when I was 12-16 and in love with Mike. That was a good space because it was wide open for fantasy. He was bringing and giving me all that I needed. I am a heavy daydreamer. I have been able to survive out here due to that very fact. There sometimes involves alot of negativity around a person who things of alternate situations, ideas, outcomes and memories - but for those that do that, it's a coping mechanism.

Mike HAD to be my boyfriend, I couldn't have one in real life (well not in the open). Mike HAD to be my family, even back then I saw it going slowly to the left. Mike HAD to be my comforter, wasn't to much of that going around.

It seems funny I know, but ask another fan and they will give you a totally different reason as to what their fan-atic looks like.

Mine is full of giggles, and gazing at pictures, and studying the movement of his body, and getting caught up in the hysteria that surrounds him. YET, I am Gemini - so I can balance the fake and real pretty well and slide back and forth between the two seamlessly. I see the man for who and what he was and how that manifested itself and love him in spite of.

I don't worship him, but I do fall at the altar of his Entertainment, lol I plant flowers, sing songs and ring bells, lol lol I twirl around in a world similar to Avatar let's start a world called MIKEATAR!

The thing I find is that the common thread between most of his fans is that he offered 'comfort'. Isn't that deep? Does that make us all have this 'missing link' in our lives?

I am interested after the visuals and media that went around after his death, if someone is going to really delve into that whole fan thing when it comes to him, because it was EXTRA and on some level SCARY seeing as we are a Diety believing people and responded in kind at his death....

Let's see if anyone does that shall we?