The Pain Never Goes Away

I was flicking through the cable channels earlier today and noticed that This Is It has made it to the Encore channel. I set a reminder and went about watching TV. The reminder came and went and I was busy so I didn't turn.

Finally I turned the channel and it happen to be on the part where Michael and that lovely young woman, who's name escapes me, were singing "I Just Can't Stop Loving You" This was one of my favorite parts of the movie. Mike was so pure, so clear it was just amazing.

I sat there watching and listening and felt my heart just flip flopping, that feeling you get when you are..in love. Then my throat just closed up and without warning I just broke down.

That's how it is when you lose someone you love. I hadn't spent any time with Mike recently, just been busy and then there he is giving me what I needed, making me feel Love (I've been on a Love kick lately). Healing what was going on inside me. I was so open at that moment and missing him in some weird kinda way (I say weird cause I did not know him personally)

It still behooves me that he really is not somewhere enjoying his children, or making music or based on what he was going to do - wrapping up his tour. He is just not here anymore.

Damn!

Let's get into this video.